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So maybe the last entry really wasnt anything but the point of the matter is... exactly... It's still kinda akward for me to be writing in here since half the time I dont even remember anyways, but now I actually kind of want to since a certain someone named Brittany wanted me too... and plus I kind of wanted to anyways but didn't really have much of a reason to begin with but now I do. So now the question is... what the bloody hell to put in each time??? Im sitting here during lunch time writing this chatting away as I just ponder off into this obsinity blankly wondering about nothing except the every word in which i write on this here journal that can easily just be corrupted or deleted by some unknown person to me from the hacking ways leaving me created more and more journals that will soon just come to an end leaving this whole process that I am talking about now pointless and useless to my life as we know it which makes me wonder to what reasoning do I truly have for typing all this in when it is just words and thoughts that roam through my mind to be read by others and maybe be commented on in later times and farther in those time I may not even come back to these ever again as I let my past stay behind me and never remind myself of what was then from what I will have become in those future times but then I think (by the way... what is thinking like... I just hear others use it so I use it as well to make it all make sense ^_^ ) of all the good times that I had from these years in school and the friends I had and hopefully many in which I still hope to have later on as well so I have stories to tell, though I dont know if they will mean very much when I become older and I want to tell those young little children about my boring old days as they stare blankly at me after trying so hard to smile for the longest time so that they can make me feel good about it all since the only thing keeping me alive will be those stories along the resperator and the tubes in me feeding me so I don't have to chew like homer did when he was in the hospital and then he started complaining that he had to work to breathe while the other guy was on a machine and maybe I'll have one of those too because we all know how lazy I am so I'll just complain about it long enough to make the nurses give in and put me on it but making sure that it is one that I can carry around with me wherever I go just like the whole food thing that I will have to make sure is trasportable so I can go wherever just like I have to go now or else I will be late for class then that wont be good which means I make my leave... Until the next rambling ^_^